So Now, Is It Time To Die?

Sara B. is a pretty woman that is 5 foot tall, blond hair,blue eyes, and very petite. She has a pleaseant personality.Sara and I worked together for about 10 years. She retired at age 51 after she found out she has Non Hodgkin Lymphoma. This was a forced retirement as soon as the company found out she had cancer they fired her and she settled out of court. They are all heart today. She seemed to overcome that for 8 years and then one year latter developed Pancreatic Cancer. She had also suffered a heart attack from all the stress.

The Pancreatic Cancer is the worst. She stayed in the hospital for 2 months no visitors except her boyfriend John. The hospital did not want her around other people. It was one terrible situation. I talked to her only on the phone. She finally made it home and I visited her. Not many people survive Pancreatic Cancer,but Sara B.did.

They had to reroute a lot of her organs and she once again survived. Sara was beating all the odds that were stacked against her. I finally got to visit as we are very close, I was her first visitor. She actually looked good for all that she had gone though these last 10 years.

Sara B. never talks religion nor believes none of that religion stuff. She has always been a good person and has helped a lot of people especially in her own family. I have always had respect for others she does the same for me. It has always been a good relationship we have had these years. I knew she had been raised Catholic, because she had told me she had gone to church. I never questioned her about any of the church stuff. I just hate to see her so terrified. Everyone, has some fear, but is not terrified of death.

The live in boyfriend called to tell me that Sara B. came from her checkup and was cancer free. I was so happy for Sara. That night I thanked God for all he had done for Sara. I also asked him to help me approach Sara the right way if the need came again. I had the nagging thought that I am suppose to do this, no matter how mad she might get. I had a daughter that had cancer and I learned it can come back. I was so happy for her.

She was finally getting a break from doctors and treatments and really given a new start. I did tell her God was good to her, and let it go. Sara was cancer free after years of hell.

Three months at home and the news today was not good. She went back in the hospital for her blood pressure it was down too low. She is in terrible pain, the kind that is excruciating. She can not sit, stand, or eat. They tell her she has been on pain killers for so long, she needs to be just on Tramadol. I did not think this made much sense. I went down to get her some flowers. My daughter followed the boyfriend out and he was in the hall crying uncontrollably. Sara was never told, and she is home now. She now has lung cancer.

I know in my heart that she knows the truth. All she does is cry and tell me she is in pain. It is hard for me to watch her. That is my own selfish thought, and I am sorry I let it get in the way. She told me she is not getting any better and how she is so afraid to die. I asked her if I could pray for her and was told I could. She seems to be getting worse.

Today, I wanted to know if she believed in God and she said she did. If she is still here in the morning I am going to pray with her. I will ask her in the morning.

Ask if you can pray.

If no answer you can hold their hand.

Ask if you can do anything for them.

There was a wonderful book I was given by a friend of mine. The book is called "On Death and Dying", by Elizabeth Kubler Ross. I read it several years ago, but decided to look at it again. Ross,gives five stages of dying. It may help if you or someone you know is dying.

Update 8/28 Sara B and I prayed together and she is sleeping, she is out of her pain. I am glad I asked if she wanted prayers. We prayed together and I could see the fear leaving her face. She is finally at rest now and at peace. The only thing I regret is waiting so long to ask her.

This is a great book that helps us to take the fear out of death. Death was made as a necessary end and we will all experience this sometime. The book will instill courage and show how death is a great plan. Think of how death brings an end to people who are suffering on this earth.